yearn

I yearn
I yearn for something more
I yearn for something that is real
for something beautiful
for something beyond my imagination
for something beyond this world
only God knows what it is
that is if God even existed
I yearn, I yearn

some hopeful dream,
crushed

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ShAuNnY BoY:P ~

recent past

Last Sunday,

Nicholas, didi and I went out for a movie. Was supposed to meet didi at church before going to DP for a movie... but I overslept. Fast forward.... Nic booked the movie already. I thought we would have some time to eat first [spend time] but too bad, we didn't. Nic and didi ate waffels and I had popcorn for my lunch.

The movie was Blood:the last vampire.

Movie review- to me... the review looks nice, the action was not bad... until the end.
Pretty ridiculous.
Anyhow, managed to spend some time with my beloved didi. Not what I planned but sufficient.
No closure though...

The week went past VERY fast and I didn't get to talk to my didi yet.
And well, seconds turned into minutes, minutes turned into hours, hours to days and now days turned to a week since that fruitful day.

Saturday has been... sweaty... since I lost my "virginity" to the freebie... :P
My friends and I played freebie in the MMU field. It was alright.

So now its Sunday. Hours from now I have to wake up to go to church. Hoping to see didi once again. Was rewatching Step Up 2 earlier on, then chatted with Nic followed by some reading on Psychology while listening to some music. This lyric struck me... especially after the words ..."you want somebody" ...by David Archuleta.

You're reaching out
And no one hears you cry
You're freaking out again

Cause all your fears remind you

Another dream has come undone
You feel so small and lost

Like you're the only one

You wanna scream cause you're desperate

You want somebody, just anybody

To lay their hands on your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believing

That someday you're gonna see the light

You're in the dark

There's no one to call

And sleep's your only friend

But even sleep can't hide you

From all those tears

And all the pain and all the day

You wasted pushing them away

It's your life,it's time you face it

....

I realised that I have made didi an important part of my life. And I've made my world revolve around him. Sometimes I feel I try to hard. A lot of time I think wayyyy too much. I guess like in the song, I'm simply desperate to find meaning in my relationship with my didi. I'm simply desperate to find a reason to keep on believing.

Gestalt Psychology is true when psychologist saw that humans tend to see the bigger picture and not the individual parts. In addition, they saw the process of imposing meaning and structure on incoming stimuli as automatic and outside conscious awareness.

My conversation with Nic revolves too much around my brother. I should let go. Not what I believe in, but my over thinking. Here's a shout out to Nic for always being there, being the 'somebody' in my life, supporting my relationship with his best friend. Also to friends like Moira, for guiding me to see the individual parts of my life when things don't go my way.

I'm a desperado...
I guess we all are in some way or another ; just to feel important.

~xoxo~
ShAuNnY BoY:P ~

Are you a Physics major ????

Are you a Physics major?

Due to the enormous workload involved in physics classes combined with stress and lack of sleep, physics students often forget (either by accident, defense mechanism, or intentionally) what their major really is.

Thus, as a physics major, I took it upon myself to create a small list of indicators to help us all remember what we really are.

YOU MIGHT BE A PHYSICS MAJOR...

if you have no life - and you can PROVE it mathematically.

if you enjoy pain.

if you know vector calculus but you can't remember how to do long division.

if you chuckle whenever anyone says 'centrifugal force.'

if you've actually used every single function on your graphing calculator.

if when you look in a mirror, you see a physics major.

if it is sunny and 70 degrees outside, and you are working on a computer.

if you always do homework on Friday and Saturday nights.

if you know how to integrate a chicken and can take the derivative of water.

if you think in 'math.'

if you've calculated that the World Series actually diverges.

if you hesitate to look at something because you don't want to break down its wave function.

if you have a pet named after a scientist.

if you laugh at jokes about mathematicians.

if the Humane society has you arrested because you actually performed the Schrodinger's Cat
experiment.

if you can't remember what's behind the door in the science building which says 'Exit.'

if you have to bring a jacket with you, in the middle of summer, because there's a wind-chill
factor in the lab.

if you are completely addicted to PhysLink.com.

if you avoid doing anything because you don't want to contribute to the eventual heat-death of
the universe.

if you consider ANY non-science course 'easy.'

if when your professor asks you where your homework is, you claim to have accidentally
determined its momentum so precisely, that according to Heisenberg it could be anywhere in the universe.

if the 'fun' center of your brain has deteriorated from lack of use.

if you'll assume that a 'horse' is a 'sphere' in order to make the math easier.

if you understood more than five of these indicators.

if you make a hard copy of this list, and post it on your door. If these indicators apply to you,
there is good reason to suspect that you might be classified as a physics major. I hope this clears
up any confusion.


Created by Jason Lisle. Edited by Anton Skorucak of PhysLink.com




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ShAuNnY BoY:P ~